I know that sometimes separation is good, it makes you grateful for the time you do spend together, it makes you rely upon God instead of pleasurable emotions. However the separation from Alyce, Ben and Jonathan is just down right painful. I am blessed to have them as my children but it is so hard to let them go. I want Jonathan to know that we do love him and care about him, I want a relationship with my grandson that I suppose is never going to be the way I want it and that hurts.
Thank God that I can rely upon him to fill that hole inside of me created by the distance between them and us. Without Him it really would be unbearable. With God all things are possible and I have to believe that! Faith is not faith without times that require faith and only faith to get you through. God only wants good for His children, so I give it to him and do the most powerful thing I can do, PRAY.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Friday, May 21, 2010
We are all his children
Looking at my grandson today and his reactions to the things around him, I am reminded of my relationship with God. Jonathan knows when he is stretching the boundaries and will not look you in the eye but glance at you to see if you have noticed his intent.
Not unlike ourselves when we try to justify our behaviour but won't look God in the eye because deep down we know we are wrong. We may be sorry later but we had the chance to stop and didn't.
There are no excuses we have the strength and righteousness of Jesus Christ and if we would turn to Him first we could eliminate the need to repent because we wouldn't have sinned against God in the first place.
So often now I see my behaviour, reactions, responses through God's eyes and I am disappointed with myself as I know He would be.
God's son payed the ultimate penalty so we wouldn't be bound by sin, so when we do so easily it is making light of His sacrifice.
God help me to focus on you and not myself, for if my eyes are on you then I know the best course of action and limit my ability to circumnavigate your standards.
I am not the centre of my life, you are, help me to remember that.
Not unlike ourselves when we try to justify our behaviour but won't look God in the eye because deep down we know we are wrong. We may be sorry later but we had the chance to stop and didn't.
There are no excuses we have the strength and righteousness of Jesus Christ and if we would turn to Him first we could eliminate the need to repent because we wouldn't have sinned against God in the first place.
So often now I see my behaviour, reactions, responses through God's eyes and I am disappointed with myself as I know He would be.
God's son payed the ultimate penalty so we wouldn't be bound by sin, so when we do so easily it is making light of His sacrifice.
God help me to focus on you and not myself, for if my eyes are on you then I know the best course of action and limit my ability to circumnavigate your standards.
I am not the centre of my life, you are, help me to remember that.
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